Friday, December 30

Christmas in Perth City 2016

I made the right decision to go down town Perth for Christmas! πŸŽ„πŸŽ…Celebrated Christmas week with my friends was the best choice ever. Glad to meet up with them and have a long chat, awesome road trip, food and shopping as well. 5 hours of car trip and 1 hour to Perth city was all worth it. Meet up and stayed over at Rachel's house throughout the days. Went to Woolies as well to pick up some groceries for Christmas dinner as most of the shop were not open on that day. Rest for awhile and head to dinner!

Had my first Japanese meal, I mean bento style dinner! 🍣🍣I love it and been craving it for so long. But still haven't try the real Japanese raw fish for dinner. Then Rachel decided to bake some cookies at night to give it some for her brother and friends the next day. Got to try her homemade cookies! πŸͺπŸͺIt was so good. All demolished within the next day. That's how good it is. Gonna try her recipe and make it as well for everyone.

On Christmas day itself all of the shop were practically closed. We went to Victoria park to look for restaurant that opens for lunch. Luckily Good Roast open for business a Hong Kong style restaurant!πŸ˜‹ Definitely can't compared back to KK's taste. πŸ˜…

Went to visit one of the University in Perth, UWA. Oldest and the first University in Perth! I love the vibe and exterior of the building. The University is located in the middle of the city but as soon as I entered the Uni it was magnificent, back to the olden day, a vintage style Uni.

At first we were heading to Kings Park before going to UWA but we couldn't find any parking there. So we went to UWA first. Almost took 30mins to find a parking. Lots of people were gathering and picnic with friends and family. So all packed up at the park.

The scenery was amazing and beautiful. I enjoyed the view and all the walking. And we gave up half way on the glass bridge cause I'm scared of height. πŸ˜…πŸ˜… On the way down from the Kings Park we stopped by awhile and took photo at Blue Boat House. Smells really bad tho all the seaweed and seawater smells really bad but the view was breathtaking.

After that we drove to Frementle for sight seeing again as most of the shop were closed. Didn't managed to go try their fish & chips, ice cream and go to their Frementle Market. Such unfortunate. Fret not I will go there again! πŸ˜€

Walking around Frementle and take few picture of the small park there. Luckily its a calm and quite day for us to stroll around and chill. The next day which falls on boxing day! We all had an agreement to make it a shopping day. Cause who can resist sales. We all made a good purchase on boxing day. I purchased mostly for me to wear to work and to college. Practical stuff but all so worth it as long as I don't fucking convert to MYR. πŸ˜…πŸ˜…

After a tiring day of shopping, we headed to nearby city where my friends recommended to try Korean food. Cause I was really craving for Korean food after so long in Geraldton. This dinner was my treat since they have been kind enough to let me stay over and bring me all other places for sight seeing. So grateful to have them accompany me the whole time during the stay. 

On Christmas night we were planning where to visit on the day after Boxing day. They search and look for some popular tourist place for me to choose. Wave rock or York town. I chose Wave Rock since they haven't been to Wave Rock too. It took us 7 hours forth and back throughout this journey. My first long day road trip to Wave Rock.

The journey was really long and tiring but all worth it with all the scenery on the way to Wave Rock. The scenery was amazing. However Wave Rock was really only few minutes of sight seeing place as it was really small place. And took picture of Hippo Yawn where the rock doesn't look like Hippo to me. More like elephant. HAHA πŸ˜‘

On the way back we drop off to York town for awhile, took few picture and most important was looking for toilet. HAHA Small vintage town. Most of the shop were closed during that time since its already 6pm. Most of the regional area closed around 5pm to 6pm. Same as Geraldton unless it was restaurant. 

After arrived back to Perth we headed directly to Northbridge for dinner at a Taiwan restaurant. Had our simple dinner then headed to Elizabeth Quay for a night view. The view was really amazing and it was freezing as well that night. I had amazing day and night tiring as well.

Lastly woke up early on Wednesday morning to meet up with my Aunt to head back to Geraldton. I'm a bit reluctant to go back, I love being in the city. The vibe and all the amazing food I can't get in Geraldton. There's down side and up side staying in the city than regional area. I am able to earn more money and use less in regional area, while in city expenses is pretty high and high pay job offer is very low. Also all the weight gain from eating in the city is unbearable!!! In 5days 4 night I've gained 2kg. Living in the city is a NO NO! HAHA Nonetheless I'm having fun in this short trip! I would definitely go there again. 

Till then,
Cheers and God Bless. 

Monday, December 19

The lazy month

This is me right now.
I'm in a lazy mode.
I've been doing nothing but social media all day.
πŸ’—E.V.E.R.Y. D.A.YπŸ’—

This is me pretending to be busy in front of laptop. 
But actually I was just watching movie.
My day goes by so quickly without doing any shit.
Holiday mode at day time and working mode at night.
All I do is waiting for the evening to come and go to work.
That's how my life goes right now.
No friends to hang out and do some stuff.
Kinda boring. 
But oh well this is the time I get to relax and be lazy AF. 
5 more days till my Christmas trip to downtown Perth!
Gonna stay over at friends house and have some fun.
Can't wait!

Till then,
Cheers and God Bless.

Wednesday, December 7

6th Month in Geraldton

Today marks my end of term for my Cert 3.✌ I have finally completed my Certificate III in Early Childhood and Care. This is a great day to celebrate. There's no need to celebrate actually. I just wanna work and earn some money for my short trip to Perth and my cousin's graduation in UK. So much of travelling makes me so happy. Best part is always earning money, seeing my bank filled with income I've earned. πŸ’°πŸ’°πŸ’° So happy! The worst part is I need to pay tuition fee for 2017 first semester by this week. 😒 At least I've earn some pocket money for my short trip to Perth. Still need to save up for 2nd semester 2017 and UK trip πŸ˜’ Work hard play hard 😏

I've been here for 6 months now. Its been lots of ups and down with family going on. Family wise, not good. I'm in awkward position to meddle with such happening. That is why I decided not to stay here during my work holiday. Might as well go travel and meet up with my friends. I haven't explore or visit much during my stay here. It was mostly study and work. So I will enjoy my short trip that I would much have. 

Work wise, partly good and partly bad. Good part is I got another more rewarding waitress job. Long hours and more pay hours. The bad part was, I can't reject the Chinese restaurant that I'm working on.  It will be unfaithful the person who introduced to me. Cause the way to repay is to continue to work with them despite less hours and less pay hours given. I'm in dilemma in this situation. There are a lot of factors as well besides above. πŸ˜’ Oh well I need to come up a lot of freaking excuses so I can set my time properly with both side. Not to mention, I hope to get morning shift for my childcare center as well. More income πŸ˜…πŸ˜… All about πŸ’°πŸ’°

Relationship wise, not progressing at all. πŸ˜… I was flirting (past tense now) and/or still trying my best to talk with the guys but my guts are like shit.πŸ’© I have no guts and confidence to talk with guys. I always hate this part of me. I was really determine to chase this guy in my workplace but I was like 'not a good timing' (every fucking time πŸ˜‘) Oh well might as well just single forever the rest of my life. HAHAHA 

I can't wait to have some fun and relax at the end of year! Celebrate the joyous day and the coming of new year. Lots of adventure and journey to overcome. All will be smooth sailing, full of laughter and happiness. 

Till then,
Cheers and God Bless!

Saturday, November 26


I was so stressful for the past week. It truly affects me throughout the process. I was stuck and sandwich in between of everything. I was so level headed above for my future that it stopped me from enjoying the present of life. I kept on thinking about how my future should be, this is the way to my future, I'm going to do this so I can have this future ahead, I will do this now so it will be better later. I was so engrossed with my future I don't have the time to enjoy my present. I'm so stuck in going forward I'm not looking at my surrounding at all. 

I am not enjoying my youth at all. Not at all. I am being too cautious of everything and I wouldn't make myself stepping into different path. I am so scared of taking new challenges which is why I have been going for the safe path. I haven't experience the fun, thrilled, love, adventurous life. I told my BFF about these frustration of mine and she knocked me out of it. She told me ''why bother and stressful about the things you have not experience? Go love, go flirt, go date, go experience, be adventurous, enjoy your youth, and have fun in your present now.''

To tell you the truth, when I declared (I mean decided πŸ˜…πŸ˜…) to study abroad I was worried. Especially the money. Even up until now I was worried about the cost and expenses I need to pay for. Next month which is December, tuition fee due for my diploma course, next year 2017 UK cousin's graduation trip, what else? (let's see πŸ˜„) Oh I might transfer to Perth new uni (due to household problem 😟), like starting all over again. All the dilemma that I'm not suppose to worries makes me worried. I'm so stressful right now GAHHHHHHHHHH SHIT LIFE SHIT LIFE. HOW CAN I ENJOY LIFE LIKE THIS WITH ALL THE FRUSTRATION AND STRESS STUCK even though I try not to make it into my problem. 

See how it goes. At least let me get over with the moving part first. 2 more days till moving out! 

Till then,
Cheers and God Bless. 

Monday, November 14

Summer strikes in!

Summer should be like this but it ended up like hell.

Today marks the start of summer.🌞🌞🌞 I mean like literally turning from 25 degree to direct 40 degree in 3 days. It is only the start of summer I don't know if I could handle the heat for 3 months. I start to feel drowsy and hot right now. Its unbearable!πŸ˜’πŸ˜’ For the next few days I will stay indoor as much as possible so I can avoid the heat and sun. The heat actually burns my skin off pretty bad and dries up faster than winter. Oh I miss the cold winter. Need lots of water and moisture to keep up from the heat. I can go to swim indoor pool now! I can't wait for it.

Till then
Cheers and God Bless.

Wednesday, November 9

5th Month in Geraldton

Real short update for you guys what I've been doing lately. I have exact 1 month left before I complete my Cert 3. It was kinda stressful for me or partially stressful. HAHA I've been rushing my theory and workplace assessment as much as I can within this 1 month. I'm progressing pretty well. Sometimes I just don't know how to write a decent description in the report! So complicated especially in English. It's really hard to describe a situation using solely English when I have more than 3 language in my head running. Its pain in the ass.

I've been a night owl for the past month and I have Panda eyes right now. I can't even stand the pimples that have been on my face forever! I need facial to make my skin pretty ok! The weather in Geraldton is pretty good. The wind is chilly whole day. Except for the bloody prickly sun. When the sun shines through my body it hurts and burnnnnnnnn with just few minutes. Sunscreen is the top selling product of the year! HAHA Sunscreen everyday is a must but sometimes I forgot about it. The weather gets even dryer during the summer, I might be dried fish soon HAHA.

I can't wait to finish my cert 3 and enjoy my holiday! Not to forget earn some money for my tuition fee and travelling as well! Woohoooooo! Planning to go down Perth City for Christmas! Jingle Bell Jingle all the way! So excited for this festive season! I going to miss caroling this year! T.T

Till then,
Cheers & God Bless.

Friday, November 4

Halloween 2016

Back then no one really celebrate Halloween because it is not popular back in Malaysia. Fast forward today everyone was celebrating Halloween and my news feed on Facebook were flooded with tons of scary picture! I'm a scared cat person so I don't bother hang out or purposely dress up for such occasion. But this year lots of younger children dress up for Halloween, I just wanna hug them! So cute and adorable. This year there are small group of children came to our house. So we requested to get some photo taken.  

They all so cute! I just can't get enough all the children here. They are so adorable, sometimes cheeky and being silly. There not much party for adult mostly for children. Their parents guided and accompany them walk all around the housing area. Knocking people's door and asked for trick or treat. 

And I just came out from shower. I was waiting for them earlier but they didn't came so I might as well just shower first. Didn't know they came on time. I kinda panicked a little bit. HAHA Anyway after these group of children left none of them come anymore. It was my first time experienced such spontaneous day. I truly have fun seeing them and being all hype up with all the chocolate they have gotten. Can't wait for next year.

As soon as the clock strikes 12am everything turns into Christmas mood. All the shop starts selling Christmas decoration and all sort of food special for the big day. It is so festive and I'm hype up for Christmas. I can't wait for Christmas and before that need to work hard for my study! Less than 1 month till I finish my Cert III!

Till then,
Cheers and God Bless.

Sunday, October 16

Beach Day

Now that the weather is turning warmer there's lots of event going around lately. Last week Sunday was full of excitement in the town. There's a private ship display and concert at the town beach. Unfortunately I did not go to the concert I was working that night. Visited one of the display at the bay and enjoy a short walk.

Of course mandatory things to do. Take as much picture as possible. Even tho the weather turn warmer but the wind is still cold. Then we headed to the beach and dug baby clams. We've got one container full! The water was cold and the wave was so strong that day. Practically soaked on the bottom. Nevertheless we dug tons of clams and enjoy the hot sun outside. It was cool and fun.

That week later it seems that I caught the flu. The weather were like playing with me. On Monday the weather was really hot but on the next day Tuesday it got colder. I was like oh shit definitely getting the flu. So I've been sick for the past 3 days. Still on recovering mode now. 

15 MORE DAYS TILL NOVEMBER!!!!! OMG My workplace assignment just got harder. I don't even know whether I could finish it on time. I'm having a hard time to finish my workplace assessment. Trying my best to finish the shit as soon as possible. Need to plan my strategy right now. I couldn't even think of not finishing on time. I have exact less than 2 months to complete 4 new units workplace assessment. OMG I might just write the crap out of it. 

Anyway, I've been spending money at least every month. I couldn't resist sales. HAHA All the beauty product that I've brought from KK almost at its finish line. HAHA So I've order online at innisfree especially their mask! BUY 10 FREE 10 OMG It a great bargain for mask! Not to mention 15% off for new members. MY GOODNESS! Double the fun. 

Anyway gonna restrict myself from spending more since I need to save money for my next term dafuq! I need to think about the tuition fee for next year. I gotta save up more for the next 4 months. So I can pay for the next term. Gahhhhh so much things to do and save money right now! Hoping that everything will be alright. 

Till then,
Cheers and God Bless.

Thursday, October 6

Spring feels like Summer

The weather turns warmer. Sept to October is Spring time but as if now it feels like Summer. The sun in Aussie is no joke. It is blazing hot and my childcare center turned on the air conditioner. Everyone starts wearing shorts and sleeveless top but for me I'm still wearing cover up clothes. First is to protect me from cold cause I might not know the wind's crazy mind. Second I don't want to get darker as I currently am right now. I get dark easily and fast under the sun, to turn back to light skin color probably gonna took me months for that. I can't bare the mind on summer time. I'll be as dark as soy sauce by the end of summer next year. HAHA

Went to Quilt festival at the town last Sunday. Really amazed by the effort that these people took their time to make such beautiful and detailed sewing technique. Because it took so much time and effort it cost much more than we expected. Even the material they sold in the market were ridiculously expensive. 

After the Quilt market we went to one of the Aunties house to have lunch. Typical Chinese cuisine, hot and spicy. Still preferred Western style that they bought at the supermarket. HAHA Since they are from China my Aunt and I just listen to their gossip. Don't even bother what they are talking about anyway. 

This week fortunately I've got called to work at childcare center, I am so glad that I've got the chance to earn more money for my tuition fees and UK trip. Working at childcare in the morning and evening in the restaurant was tiring but it was all worth it. I have good resume on the list and earning money with honesty. I just wanna say that I'm blessed. 

I try not to get too greedy when it comes to money but money comes first right? I mean I will be applying another restaurant that offer better pay but due to the relationship with the Chinese restaurant its hard to accept another and apply. I don't even have time to work extra place with the current situation on hand. I'll see how it goes by then. Everything is in God's hand. I just hope everything goes on smoothly.

Till then,
Cheers and God Bless.

Thursday, September 29

3rd Month in Geraldton

It took me long enough to visit the ST Xavier Francis Church in Geraldton. The main Catholic church in Geraldton. When I first arrived it was under renovation. The exterior of the building is gorgeous and beautiful but as I entered into the church everything feels a bit off. 

It looks so dark and the color inside was really off. Grey doesn't match with bright orange. I was just looking around the interior but I must say I can hardly feel anything mystical about the church. I just felt off and different. Maybe it is not the same way back home. But compared to any other I've visited few churches overseas it felt magical to me. 

Anyway had lunch beside the Church as there is a newly open restaurant. So we went there to try something new. Chip was the best meal of the day! hahahaha My burger was enormous but too bad the meat was tasteless. It was few weeks ago btw lol.

Now that I've been Geraldton for 3 months it felt like nothing. However, things happened a lot in between the period of time. I thought that I'm going to finish my Cert III earlier but it is so difficult to get it done when my supervisor is busy all the time. My unit gets harder when it reach the last two group especially the workplace assessment. Trying to do my best on theory assessment at home but as usual procrastinating at its finest! HAHA 

While I was doing my practical at my selected childcare centre for 2 months I've gotten their casual relief contract! I can work when they need a relieve staff! I really can't wait to get my Cert III faster so I can get more working hours from them! More working hours means more money, more money means I can pay my tuition fees and go travel FTS!

This year I've been to Japan and now I'm in Australia. To tell you the truth I'm so addicted to travel that I can't stop! I can't even save an amount of money for my future business plan. But already plan more travelling trip with different friends of mine. OH SHIT not to mention I'm going UK FOR 3 WEEKS! I'm currently saving up for my tuition fees and UK trip. I need approximately AUD7K, where the F* do I get all those money from? I just want to pray to God that I get more working hours at my childcare centre and the waitress job right now. Oh God Please! 

Cut my own bang and I regretted it after the second day. I am still in a love hate relationship with my bang right now. Sometimes it makes my face looks smaller sometimes it does the opposite. Acne even popped out on the 3rd day when I barely put my bang down. So I ended up pinned my hair as usual. The most horrifying that happened was my hair scalp is so dry my hair keep falling out more than I thought. Now I have a small patch of hairless spot. Luckily I can cover it up when I let my bang down. It is not that visible unless I show it to anyone anyway. Putting some medicine and moisturizer so it doesn't get too dry.  

Confessed to a guy that I loved for 4 years. Got an indirect rejection from it lol. Got over it faster than I thought. Then it comes to family problem. Now I hate people who loves alcohol and always on my guard on no matter what he does. It scares the heck outta me. I always thought that getting a white boyfriend and have a lovely marriage life is better than Asian people. In real life it sucks and they are all the same as Asian people, nothing different from it. Why bother anymore. I just hope that there are more gay guys so I can feast my eyes! HAHA JOKES!!

Till then
Cheers and God Bless!

Thursday, September 22

The Shoot 2016

The Geraldton Clay Target Club held their annual Crayfish shoot this year for few days. We went there on Saturday for the culcutter. Since my uncle was asked to help out for the event. It was my first time to witness such amazing competition. All the competitor were amazing! Good hand eye coordination during the shoot. Here's compilation photo on Saturday. 

We went there as well on Sunday to chill and commemorate the winners. It was the final shoot of the day we went there at the time for tea time. On our time to get some foodie and watched the last few shooters to compete. The award ceremony took around an hour and half, there were different categories from veteran to junior and 30 disk shoot to 100 disk shoot from each individual.

I was amazed to see how their time, effort and hobbies turn to something incredible. Their hand eye coordination are amazing, I don't think I could shoot like them. It takes them ages to train and join competition to improve themselves. 

Nevertheless I enjoy the event and got to see some eye catching good looking guys. So all win win situation for me. HAHA btw I need to get my ass off and do something instead of doing nothing at all. Having my school holiday for 3 weeks! Make use of my holiday for assignment and workplace assessment for time being. 

Till then,
Cheers and God Bless

Sunday, September 18

Eyeing a person who is younger

Yeah I confessed to a guy that I loved for 4 years. It was a real sad way to destroy our friendship. I was thrown into friend zone or maybe even lower than that. It hurts like crazy and it took me long enough to get over it. I was particularly went through it quickly than I thought. But I sometimes do missed him badly. It's part of unrequited side. 

I was determined to look for someone here in Aussie. It took me quite some time to find one because there is much more older guy than younger one. I went to one of the Gun Club yesterday and I spot one to my liking. Decent looking guy but much younger than I am. Both of us were definitely eyeing each other. As usual I was bad with guys, but I am quite fond of him. We did exchange few glances and he shyly walk towards us few time for the culcutter. 

He is quite tall for his age. I think that's how white people are. Tall and muscular at the age of 20 years. I cheered for him during his turn to compete. We both smile at each other, he is so cute and handsome for me. HAHA I just melted. So throughout the day my eyes are searching all over for him every where. It was like a hidden eye spot hide and seek.

I need a change. Instead of looking for someone to date and settle down early, I need a friend to hang out and talk with. I haven't had a good taste of men. Need to taste and experience some adventure with people who loves to have fun. I've been playing safe for quite awhile right now. Always on low self-confidence and avoid conversation with people. I need to step up the game. I wouldn't be able to meet more people with this level of attitude. 

Where the fuck is my Leo's confident????? I SAW AN ARTICLE FROM NASA SAYING ZODIAC SIGN CHANGED DATE. I'm still LEO btw AHAHAHAHA Anyway self confident is the key!

Till then,
Cheers and God Blessed.

Monday, September 12

What is marriage life?

Its been a busy day today. I finally felt so much better and not sick. Still have a mild flu and coughing tho. I went to creche today and take good care of children. One of the kid started his potty training right now. The grandmother told one of the lecturer that the kid need to be ask to go to toilet every 30 minutes so that he won't piss his pants off. So we took measure and ask the kid every 30 minutes but he wails and felt so uncomfortable. So as predicted he pissed his pants on the cushion. The lecturer and other classmate took care of it while I was busy cleaning and packing up all the toys. Creche today were busy as well and few other child care centre brought kids to the creche and make tons of mess today. It was hectic day I must say.

Went home as usual and saw Uncle's son car and knew that he brought the girls into the house. Went in and the air smells really bad. It smells like nail polish, I mean alcohol. Wine and hard alcohol is served. They had tons of laugh and chats as usual. I was just busy with my computers so I won't have to talk to them. I do need some time to get used to their conversation. I don't know what they are talking about. I joined in their conversation a bit later. Its not like I talk to them, mostly listening and answering few questions.

So they went off and I cleaned up the table. My uncle was drunk. Real drunk. My uncle start telling off my Aunt for being mean to him. LOL. They seems like arguing but in a soft voice. Cause I was there. It breaks my heart a little bit. It really breaks my heart. On the outside appearance it seems really lovely dovey but every couple will sure go through all good and bad times. So how do they make it works? That you have to really experience it through yourself. Those couple who go through all up and down together will always have each other but its hard to say. People change as time goes by. Deal with it and go through it. It's life.

I mean what is marriage life? What does it do? Can I eat it or drink it? It all depends on how you look at it. Different people have different ways and perspective. Think about it.

Till then
Cheers and God Bless.

Friday, September 9

Spring 2016

September 2016 this year marks the turning from winter to spring. I went to farm on Sunday afternoon. Along the way to the farm the scenery was amazing! Wild flowers are blooming, plantation farm was beautiful. 

It was sunny and beautiful day. The weather was nice and chill enough. Had picnic at the farm full of fly and bees. I kid you not. The fly was horrendous and very disturbing throughout the noon. Buzzing around non stop. As so on, I got sick because the season is changing. 

For now I'm feeling so much better after resting and not going to school. Took medicine and rest enough and lots of fluid to keep me energized. I'm in Aussie for 3 months right now. I lose some weight which is very good for me! Getting beautiful everyday except for my skin as the weather here is very dry. Need tons of moisturizer for my face. 

Yesterday 08/09 marks the best day for my girls! Diana finally tied knot after such long years of dating her boyfriend. It's a bittersweet moment for me because I'm sad for not being there and help her out but in the same time I've never felt so happy to celebrate such joyous day even tho I'm far from here.

Now that I'm feeling much better I'm gonna go back to where I'm suppose to do. Study and work. At first I thought that I would finish my study early for 1 or 2 weeks but doesn't look like it tho. The work placement assessment got me delayed for quite awhile. Childcare centre is busy with children each day I can barely do my workplace assessment at all. The supervisor doesn't have time to observe me at all. I have to go to the centre more often until my assignment is done.

Cousin's graduation is on next year July. I was planning to go since I was boasting everyone that I'm going to her graduation but it seems impossible! Do you know how much money I need for this trip? RM20K T.T OMG where do I get all these money? I'm currently working for my school fees but for UK trip is 100% impossible. I might just plan my trip to Perth city instead lol. Or just fly back to KK instead. I don't have to use so much money for that. Still planning tho so still to early say. HAHA

Till then,
Cheers and God Bless.

Thursday, August 25

Loving a person that never loves you back.

This sucks ya know. I don't know what am I suppose to do. I've been loving this guy for so long. Every time we met he gave me false hope. Every fucking time. I try to push back my feelings whenever we met but it was such a hard feeling to control. He never cease to amazed me with his thoughtful and cheekiness. 

A girl's 6 sense is the worst ever when these kind of things happened. It takes a lot of courage and thoughts about how I should act, talk and get close to each other. I've been pushing him way too much and I distant myself away from him all the time. Yet I want to get closer and intimate with him. 

I am scared to reveal my feelings to him because I know I will distant away even further from him. No matter if he likes me or not. That's how I deal with my emotion and feelings, because I don't know how to handle all this shit. It is just too much for me.

To think that I would run away from these feelings then I guess I'm 100% wrong. Although I'm as far away from KK my feelings won't degrade nor change. It hurts like shit especially when I say 'I don't care' or 'He has nothing to do with me'

I always wonder what happen or is there any difference when I tell him I love him?  Now that I'm so far away from home I guess it doesn't affect me. Cause I don't have to face him like I used to. One thing that I will never master is confidence and saying what I want. I always go with the flow and let others decide what I'm suppose to do. It is definitely my time to come up and do something for myself. Ask what I want to know and get what I want.

No more roundabout.

Till then,
Cheers and God Bless.

Wednesday, August 17


Yup its my birthday today. Its a typical normal day for me. Not that much of a hype day for me. But a fruitful day where I've did my practical at a childcare center today as usual. My birthday happened to fall on my practical day. So I'm dealing with kids. As for today I'm at the nursery section. There is one 7 month old baby were in the care. He was salivating all over me. It was real saliva. HAHA but the baby is not cranky at all, super active and always entertain himself with toys unless he need milk. I love baby boy more than baby girl. They are much more cuter! So adorable! Let me absorbed all angmoh baby energy! HAHAHA I need to take care my skin seriously! I'm so used to go for facial treatment once a month now I felt so much dread with my dry skin! I need a smooth like baby skin T.T 

Anyway yesterday I went to pick up my birthday cake. Its a dates cake with caramel top and pecan. Oh well I had it this evening as a tea time! It was delicious and super sweet HAHA so much sugar on my birthday. 

I wasn't even expect anything but I received red packet from my yee yee even though I've been staying here for free. So blessed! Also received few birthday wishes and call from my friends. So touched T.T This year I decided to change my Facebook birthday date into private and my FB friends won't be receiving notification on it. And so my page becomes so empty and I realized only your real and closes friends remember my birthday. But not all closes friend remember tho. I just brush it off and did not mention at all because there is no point letting them know when they don't take initiative to remember. 

Oh well birthday date need to be put as reminder because people doesn't really remember, especially when they have their own life. It's hard to focus on other people when we have our own shit on hand to deal with. Life still goes on and it will get even better. Cheers to another year! Need to get in shape. I've gained weight -.- HAHAHA shittt.

Till then,
Cheers & God Bless