Wedding shoot with Farah

Little bits of wedding photo!

Happy to work with them!

We went to beach and museum.

DESTINY PHOTOGRAPHY

Tattoo

I just got my tattoo two days before my birthday.

I wasn't really sure why I wanted a tattoo.

It was my instinct to get a tattoo I guess. lol

I went to Jesselton Tattoo Shop at Kepayan. 

I wasn't really nervous to start with but as time goes by I get a little bit anxious.

We start thinking of the design as so Luther started to draw. 

At first I was planning to get two tattoo but I decided to just get one first. 

Oh please ignore tiny baby hair at my back it looked disgusting.

Luther then started to adjust the tattoo at my back. 

I was started to have cold sweat the moment I sit down. 

The machine was loud and I became so nervous!

Luckily Carrie was there with me.

It was painful as hell and it started to bleed. The needle were poking hard into my skin.

I'm vibrating as well. HAHA I went all stiff after were done. 

It was just as painful when we fall down and scratches down on the floor.

Its been 2 weeks already so its all healed. Dried and dead skin all pealed off.

I just need to get a photo shoot session for myself lol

Til then,

Cheers & God Bless

Family Portrait

I did a family shoot few months ago! 

Its probably the most over due post I've manage to keep in my draft. 

Oh well sharing some of the best picture I've taken so far.

Cool For The Summer

The weather have been gloomy for the past week. Its cold and windy. I want to snuggle and cuddle all day all night. Its been raining day and night. Its kinda hard to go out during this kind of weather. I haven't been to gym since last Friday but I'm back yesterday. For the amount of 4 days a lot of stuff happened.

It was somehow overwhelming but somehow not. I've always wonder what is it like to be in a relationship. I'm not being skeptical but there are few guys who is really interested in me. I always felt that I don't deserved any of them (some don't deserve to be with me. lol) . First one had a great impact for me. He stirred up my heart so much and it broke me even harder. He still cared for me. We met again on Monday. He always tried to make me talk more and care for me so much. I'm grateful and felt so loved that I really don't want to broke his relationship with his girlfriend. 

I was already a shy person in the first place. Never take initiative, how could I even make a move on him. Even if I have taken his heart I will never be happy. Its like third party interfere. I will never be happy to take him away from his current long girlfriend. I would never separate people's happiness in order to achieve my own happiness. Its too cruel and my future is going to be devastated. So I ended giving up so much earlier when I knew he has a girlfriend.

The second one is definitely OMG. We met at church as well. He was one of the person that I can't go with. First he's a teacher so he preach too much and a preacher as well, second he decided to become a priest after we meet for few months lol. I was like I cannot approach him anymore longer or gave anymore attention to him. I fear that he stop being a priest lol. I'm not sure but especially my instinct is far more accurate than anyone else. He always look so happy when he saw me. His smile was like so big that you could see his apple cheeks even tho he is skinny. HAHA

The third one is triple OMG. Too ugly, short. He knows my current work and he's a relative of my colleague. So there's too much connection and he's ugly as well. Always talk too much about my current work, he just talk to much I wish he could shut up. 

The last one, I'm not sure if its even relevant. We met at gym. HAHAHAHA He's hot and good looking. We only talked once and never more. But when we met at the gym he and I always secretly looking at each other. I have 180 degree eye sight please! HAHA btw I can't wait for the gym's grand opening! Looking forward to meeting more new people that day. 

Oh last thing before I end my blog post. I've decided to get a tattoo! A cross tattoo at the back of my neck and a feather on my wrist! I'll write up my experience when I've got the tattoo! So excited.

OH GOD FORGIVE ME THAT I HAVE SIN. AMEN. 

Till then,

Cheers.

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I think I have way too much ranting post. I always wonder if you guys even read my blog for no reason or just stumble upon without knowing it? I was absent at work today. I was lazy, tired and sick. I was sick of everything. At first I was really sick with flu and headache. But I went to the doctor, by then my flu was gone. I was practically fine. I was making it as an excuses for getting a sick leave form. Typical lazy ass girl I am. I fetch my friend and headed to Heritage Building. To pay our respect and tribute to the victim and heroes that lost their life. It was raining in such hot weather. 

Did you guys saw me?? I was holding an umbrella talking on the phone with my supervisor. Those guys were from suriafmsabah station. They were taking picture non stop. I was like, you pay respect and mourn for the people that was affected, Not to take picture all the way from start till the end. I even scold my friend for being like that. She kept on taking picture and video. I have to take picture of her as well. but then its always for publicity. To show off. I have nothing to say or comment about the social media right now. 

I didn't really have the chance to pray or have silence moment at all. There's few media as well. For interview session with some local people and suriafmsabah crew. I was like dragging my friend and run off as quickly as possible. I feel disgusted and intrigue with their act. Too much I must say.

Anyway running off to Asia City. Get our client's photo printed. I bought a USB drive at Hong Kong months ago. It was like super cheap, RM20. Somehow certain computer can't detect my USB drive. I was like wtf. I need to get my photo printed. Its for my own collection. I'm going to print, signed and sealed it with the frame. And one day I will open up an exhibit to show my photograph I've taken. This is my biggest dream in my whole life. Work hard. Its all about working hard for my dream and passion!

After that I went for karaoke session to release my stress. I've been stressing a lot lately out of nowhere. I always get anxiety and stress out for no reason. It was just depressing I guess. I haven't sang for so long. My voice is like chicken. Ugly voice.  Its not enough. I need more singing session. I need to swim. Swim for 2 hours or more as well. Its nice to swim. I've been craving!? Yes I've been craving for swimming lol. I swam last 2 weeks ago it was awesome and tired as hell. Swimming is my latest stress relief method instead of jogging. It cools me down faster.

So I went home and took a long nap. from 4pm til 7pm. I woke up feeling so much better but physically and mentally tired still. I think I'm stressing myself with work too much. With my work life going through right now is just too much. Lack of assistant and worker right now. I feel like I'm having too much work going on that I don't even know which to start first. Because all of the work I'm doing right now is just as important as it is. Its making me depressed. I've been making lots of mistake as well, making things even worst. Oh well either I go with the flow or change job. That's all I could think off. 

I'm sure you guys felt depressed reading this post. Its overwhelming and stuff happening. Oh Australia please grant my wish okay? I'm waiting for you. I'm waiting for your confirmation. As soon as it confirms I will start my planning a.s.a.p. The faster the better. I hope everything goes on smoothly and well. I need to escape a real one soon.

Till then

God Bless.